I'm up and about today, starting to feel a little better. Chemo Cycle 3, Day 6. Day 7 is when blood counts are the lowest and I'm at my weakest - or so they say. I'm kind of kicking butt over here! I have spurts of energy here and there and use my energy to spend time with my children. I wish I had more of both - time AND energy - but don't we all?
My little monkey fell asleep in my lap the other night and I had to grab a selfie. To be so young, innocent, not knowing that the big world around can be so harsh. All he knows is that mommy lost her hair and has "ouchies" ... and it's all he needs to know! At the ripe old age of 3, his comprehension doesn't go much beyond a new hair style and mommy is home all the time.
It's Derby Week in Louisville. I see the press and hear whispers, but I'm not part of the buzz this year. Last year I was so excited to watch it and I wanted so badly to attend some of the festivals... but those festivals are expensive. This cancer has made me reflect on a lot of things in life... what's important and what's not. Yes, I want to do more with my life... more exploring, more travelling, more enjoying... I want more friendships, more experiences, and more time... and I've come to realize that the material things are not as important as they may have seemed before.
I've never been west of Oklahoma. I want to see the west coast. I want to reconnect with old friends and share experiences. I want to go hiking in the Grand Canyon. I want to experience how wet Seattle really is and how dry they say Arizona is. I want to trace my roots back to Ireland and drink Ale with Irish folk. I want to Scuba dive in the Great Barrier Reef. I want to run a marathon! Okay, okay, I'm getting carried away... maybe a half marathon.... the point is, there are so many things in life I would love to experience and I haven't yet.
Moving forward, I want to make a goal to travel somewhere new each year. When my Jimmy is closer to 6 years old, we will go to Disney World. When the boys are older, maybe we will go white water rafting together... something I've always wanted to try... or go zip lining! I want to teach them that life is valuable, short, and precious. I want to teach my boys to love the world around them, respect nature, and give love to everyone, everywhere they go.
That's my wish.
My little monkey fell asleep in my lap the other night and I had to grab a selfie. To be so young, innocent, not knowing that the big world around can be so harsh. All he knows is that mommy lost her hair and has "ouchies" ... and it's all he needs to know! At the ripe old age of 3, his comprehension doesn't go much beyond a new hair style and mommy is home all the time.
It's Derby Week in Louisville. I see the press and hear whispers, but I'm not part of the buzz this year. Last year I was so excited to watch it and I wanted so badly to attend some of the festivals... but those festivals are expensive. This cancer has made me reflect on a lot of things in life... what's important and what's not. Yes, I want to do more with my life... more exploring, more travelling, more enjoying... I want more friendships, more experiences, and more time... and I've come to realize that the material things are not as important as they may have seemed before.
I've never been west of Oklahoma. I want to see the west coast. I want to reconnect with old friends and share experiences. I want to go hiking in the Grand Canyon. I want to experience how wet Seattle really is and how dry they say Arizona is. I want to trace my roots back to Ireland and drink Ale with Irish folk. I want to Scuba dive in the Great Barrier Reef. I want to run a marathon! Okay, okay, I'm getting carried away... maybe a half marathon.... the point is, there are so many things in life I would love to experience and I haven't yet.
Moving forward, I want to make a goal to travel somewhere new each year. When my Jimmy is closer to 6 years old, we will go to Disney World. When the boys are older, maybe we will go white water rafting together... something I've always wanted to try... or go zip lining! I want to teach them that life is valuable, short, and precious. I want to teach my boys to love the world around them, respect nature, and give love to everyone, everywhere they go.
That's my wish.